Addiction Blues
I am back on the bottom again.
The addictive personality got me when
I wanted something to ease the pain.
It wasn’t alcohol but, much the same.
Just one pill did the trick
It accelerated, oh so quick.
After years since I took a drink.
I took a pill and didn’t think.
Once the receptors have taken hold
Anything addictive will unfold.
Triggering the same centers in the brain
That starts a craving worse than pain.
I’m so ashamed of what has occurred.
People think it is so absurd.
How could someone take that many pills?
They don’t realize I have no will.
I am going through detox again.
I have support of many friends.
I am praying to God above.
Shower me with your love.
Give me strength to overcome.
Give me a future filled with fun.
But, mostly, just keep me clean.
Keep me sober to the extreme.
Bless all my friends who pray for me.
Keep them safe as they can be.
Without them I would be lost.
I love them no matter what the cost.———R. W. Johnson—–(2011)