Misery Without Company
Since you left I am hurting in every way.
The hole you left in my heart is filled with tears.
A pool for sorrows to swim in each day.
Enough misery to last me through the years.
If you would flip through the pages of my heart
you would find you fill up every page.
When you got to where you tore it apart,
I have tried to mend it with rapid age.
I have aged a year for each day you’re gone.
I should have emotions filled with rage.
God only knows how much longer I can go on.
I just have the feeling of betrayal, no rage.
Also enough sorrow to last me forever.
The sun doesn’t shine for me anymore.
I see nothing but, wet, rainy weather.
I feel too depressed to go to the store.
I am losing weight for lack of food.
I have no appetite to even eat.
I know it all sounds so crude.
It is the result of a heart of raw meat.
You’ve kicked it, ripped it, made it bled.
You’ve stomped it, romped on it,
drug it around like animal feed.
Yet, I hold onto the hope you will miss it.
You will take me back once more.
You will give me one more chance.
You will come knocking at my door.
Your rejection spears me like a lance.
I will go on crying, dying, a little more each day.
Always feeling that I can’t go on.
Always hoping that you will see a way
To return to me and we will bond.————R. W. Johnson—–(2013)