Hidden Deep Within
I often wondered if it would be a sin.
To try to understand this feeling within.
It is buried deep in the subconscious
Thinking of it is just plain nonsense.
How do I even know it exists?
Sometimes I have unreasonable fits.
Such behavior makes no sense at all.
It must have came from a fall.
Sometime, way back when.
I must have committed an awful sin.
Then buried it deep within my mind.
Hoping to forget it till the end of time.
But, my behavior shows something is wrong.
I cannot keep it hidden for so long.
I must go deep within my mind.
I must discover what thing I find.
Then try to rid myself of it.
So I will no longer have a fit.
Deep, deep meditation should do the trick.
Maybe I will finally get to the bottom of it.
I ran into monsters from the Id.
They almost made me flip my lid.
With faith & great effort I defeated them.
Now, to look even deeper within.
I think I found it in the center of my mind.
The Penile gland. I peeled off the rind.
There hidden was the worthless me.
It was too horrible for me to see.
I came around shaking all over.
I needed more than a 4 leaf clover.
I prayed that God would change what I saw.
Soon, I felt I was rid of it all.
Praise the Lord for a God who cares.
Even in our deepest lair.
—————————————-R.W. Johnson—–(2020)