Moderately Confused #2
After just one date, you won’t come around.
I am very sorry I let you down.
I am sorry I acted like I did, my dear.
I was just trying to cover up my fear.
I know now that I was a real ass.
I acted like someone without any class.
I embarrassed you in front of your friends.
I will never get another date with you again.
I have always been afraid of what I’d do.
I found out on my date with you.
That was the first real date I have been on.
I felt really sad when you were gone.
I have this built in fear of failure.
I hoped I would overcome it if I ‘date her.’
That didn’t work and you hate me for it.
I was hoping I could score a hit.
Once there, I just fell apart & became a jerk.
Whatever I tried, it just didn’t work.
There is no redemption I could mention.
If it was a job, I’d lose my pension.
I deserve all that has happened to me.
But, you didn’t deserve any of it, you see.
The jig is up, I’ll be on my way.
I hope I never repeat this day.
—————————-R. W. Johnson—–(2017)