Loved Before I Was Here
I’ve been sitting in my room.
I know noon is coming soon.
Could it be the end of free?
Maybe it’s the end of me?
One time—– long ago,
I had nowhere to go.
You came by & set me free.
You said be all that I can be.
I’ve been on my own since then.
I never had a real close friend.
I just wandered here and there.
I’ve been almost everywhere.
I have seen & done it all.
Nothing saved me from the fall.
I know it is coming soon.
Because it is almost noon.
Maybe I am all mixed up.
Or, maybe I am in a rut.
Maybe it is midnight, not noon.
Both of them are coming soon.
There is nowhere I can run.
No more days of partying & fun.
If I run to the sea, it will be boiling.
If I ask for shelter it brings recoiling.
So, I sit here in my room.
Looking around at all the gloom.
Is there no way to escape my fate?
I should have repented. Now it’s too late.
The line has been drawn in the sand.
I should have crossed it & been the man.
Confessed my sins and surrendered my soul.
I am so sorry God. Only you could know.
Suddenly, a bright light all around.
I sit staring. Not making a sound.
A voice says. “My son, I have waited so long.”
“Do not fear. Just come along.”
Tears flood my eyes. It is not too late.
I have finally found my fate.
Why, oh why did I wait so long.
All this love cannot be wrong.
Praise the Lord for His long patience.
For His agape love. His elation.
He loved me before I was here.
Now, I will love Him without any fear.
————————————- R. W. Johnson—–(2015)