The Deception Of Rejection
Life goes on despite the depravity.
At least, I live, though you left me.
There is a thin line between misery & insanity.
I am having trouble with each, to a degree.
I cannot eat. I have no motivation.
I just sit and stare, in contemplation.
Wondering where I could have gone wrong.
Why the change when he came along?
Blaming ones self is not the answer.
I thought I had a lasting romance here.
I was wrong and am suffering now.
I have to put it behind me somehow.
It is an uphill battle but, life must go on.
I can’t even tell right from wrong.
I am so depressed my system has stalled.
Like a pirate who has been keel hauled.
I space out to find an escape from it.
To other dimensions where I would fit.
Places where people really care.
I feel like I should stay there. I swear.
Coming back here is like entering hell.
Like being trapped in a deep dark well.
Friends come around and try to help.
If they only knew how bad I felt.
Maybe they would leave me alone.
Instead, they just make me groan.
I remember how it used to be.
Then, how it is now. I want to be free.
I can’t take much more of this.
I have to check out. Throw the switch.
Shut down this sick system for good.
Go where I can act like I should.
A place where all is love & happiness.
I’m talking about a place of eternal bliss.
Yes!! That’s the place for me.
I think I will remain there for eternity.
————————————R. W. Johnson—–(2015)