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Searching For Love

Searching For Love

All the nights blend into days.

My total world is one big haze.

Drifting from one bar to another.

Always searching for the other.

Significant other that’s mine alone.

Someone I can take with me home.

Each time it’s always the same.

I can’t find another to play the game.

My temper is like a loaded pistol.

My love is fragile as a crystal.

I am asked “Do your friends miss you?”

That is just that much more scar tissue.

I’m just looking for someone to love.

The answer is not in the stars above.

I don’t know if I’m up or down.

Each day is the same as I look around.

Sometimes I feel I am getting close.

Then it passes just like a ghost.

I want to change but, I am driven on.

Some people think I am running a con.

I just want someone who thinks like me.

To share my moments of ecstasy.

My temper is like a loaded pistol.

My love is fragile as a crystal.

I am asked ”Do your friends miss you?”

That is just that much more scar tissue.

I’m just looking for someone to love.

The answer is not in the stars above.

My heart is strained from dusk till dawn.

What I need is a magic wand.

I could wave it toward that special one.

She would come to me on the run.

Nights and days all blur together.

I have pushed myself to the letter.

If she is out there, she’s playing coy.

I think it’s the end of the road for this boy.

—————————————————R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

Who Is The Fool Now?

Who Is The Fool Now?

How long was it before you knew?

You are never too old to be a fool.

You fell for this one real big time.

Sorry but, I’m glad she wasn’t mine.

She told you she loved only you.

She said that no one else would do.

Yet, she was seen all over town

with others that she had found.

She was worse than “Run around Sue.”

Just another way to hurt you.

There is a name for people like her.

She deserves to be called it for sure.

It is not my place to judge another.

She was even in trouble with her mother.

Her actions judged her for others.

It is a shame she had her druthers.

It is wrong that you end up the loser.

Easy to say you shouldn’t have chosen her.

Once you did, you were a goner.

Now, your doomed to wander.

One day she will meet her undoing.

She will no longer be fooling

around with every guy in town.

She will be wearing her face in a frown.

The one she really wants will dump her.

She will be feeling like you do, sir.

So, be patient, and in due time.

I am going to make her mine.

Then I will make the wrongs right.

I will dump her without any fight.

She will be getting off easy.

No, don’t think of it as sleazy.

She has hurt too many of my friends.

I will make her pay in the end.

Vengeance is mine sayith the Lord.

The thought of that struck a chord.

Guess I will back off for awhile.

The Lord will take care of her in style.——-R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

Negativity Will Not Stay

Negativity Will Not Stay

There’s a light on in your house today.

But, you’re not there. You’ve gone away.

I wanted so for you to stay—– to stay.

You seemed so distant and far away.

I couldn’t give you a reason to stay.

The little things, they mean alot.

They give hope where there is not.

But, negative things hang on & rot.

Though one of us may have forgot.

I’m sorry to say—- that I forgot.

Communication opens up the door.

It allows us to get to the very core.

Then neither needs to feel sore.

Before it turns negative some more.

Not discussing it is what I abhor.

Friends ask me where you’ve gone?

They never ask why it took so long.

They don’t know what went wrong.

They know I’m singing a different song.

Ever since they know you’ve been gone.

Where is it that you needed to go?

Just away from me is all I know.

It could have been a different show.

We needed to take it really slow.

Then, at least, we both would know.

I’m cashing in on promises of yours.

Driving by is one of my daily chores.

I’ve found mine. Have you found yours?

If you have you’ll be home, of course.

Then we’ll become a mighty force.

The two of us will become as one.

Sharing our love under the sun.

Blending together like coke and rum.

No more negatives will ever come.

We will both know: You are the one.———R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

Fed Up

Fed Up!!

You’re tearing me up inside.

Your comments make me want to die.

The tongue is a two edged sword.

You’ve gone too far & cut the cord.

You have ripped me up, tore me down.

Made me look just like a clown.

Then you think I should forgive.

You leave me bleeding like a sieve.

I’m putting my foot down.

I’m turning over and turning around.

Look at me and see an icy stare.

This romance isn’t going anywhere.

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I’m gonna harden my heart.

I’m gonna walk out the door.

It’s time for me to get smart.

I can’t take it anymore.

Look for me at Heartbreak Hotel.

Down at the end of Lonely Street.

I have been through enough hell.

Time for me to hear a new beat.

I’m gonna walk to a different drum.

No more time to sit and cry.

I am through with being so dumb.

The parade’s not passing me by.————–R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

“Pookey”

“ Pookey”

Oh, Pookey—you’re the most.

Your hard to find.

Just like a ghost.

You come and go.

just like the wind.

I never know

when you’ll be in.

Can you take me

wherever you go.

So that I’ll always be

part of your show.

From the highest mountains

to the deepest seas.

To life’s bubbling fountains.

Just you and me.

We’ll slide down a rainbow.

We’ll dance in fairy dust.

We’ll have a sparkling glow

like the sun at dawn or dusk.

We’ll get lost in our magical world.

Riding dragons and having thrills.

Morning will find me curled up

In my bed . But,— where will you be??——-R. W. Johnson—–(2011)

The Search Goes On

The Search Goes On

My love life keeps going round & round.

I keep searching for the one I’ve never found.

I’ve dated older girls.

I’ve dated younger girls.

There is no cure for all the thrills.

They are all fun but, not the one.

The one & only soulmate fun.

Are my sights set way too high?

Am I shooting for the sky?

I think not. She’s closer. Even near.

I must press on without any fear.

To reach that pinnacle of love.

To give my heart that extra shove.

That sends it falling into ecstasy.

A place meant for you and me.

There to share the many blessings.

A more sure love with no guessing.

Love is a many splendored thing.

So much more than a brief fling.

When two soul mates connect.

That is the solution I elect.

Until then, I go round & round.

Searching for the one not found.

Somehow I can feel her near.

I must proceed without any fear.

Searching for that angel of light.

That will keep me warm every night.

Share my life until the end.

My soul mate, my lover, my friend.——-R. W. Johnson —–(2014)

Reflexions

Reflexions

I am feeling pretty lousy still.

I am thinking that I always will.

You were the greatest love I’ve ever had.

Now you’re gone & I am more than sad.

I had it made but, I let it slip away.

I was only thinking of the next day.

Thinking of myself & not of you.

I should have known you have feelings too.

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead now. There is no fun.

Everything that should cheer me

makes me want to die.

I should have spent more time with you.

Now, it’s so obvious what I didn’t do.

I put my needs way ahead of yours.

My life should have taken a different course.

What you want is important too.

I would have done the same if I were you.

Hind sight is always better than fore sight they say.

I was too blind to see it any other way.

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead. There is no fun.

Everything that downs me

makes me want to cry.

I have pleaded my case to everyone.

You & your friends think I’ll overcome.

I know I won’t. I’m in misery.

There is no end that I can see.

Has there ever been a man who suffered like this?

Or, am I the first that still exists?

I only wish you could read my repentant heart.

Then you would know trying again is worth a start.

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead. There is no fun.

Everything that should cheer me—–

makes me want to die.————————–R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

A Lifetime Of Love

A Lifetime Of Love

People said it was just a summer romance.

Now, in our winter years, there is no chance.

They were wrong about me and you.

A million to one. We made it through.

Only problem is:

None of them still lives.

Yes, we are still together.

Still in love and will be forever.

You complete me in every way.

Just as I complete your day.

You’re there in the mornings when I awake.

You’re there in the evenings with what it takes.

What it takes to make me whole.

You enrich my very soul.

Without you I can’t exist.

Without me, others are like a mist.

Not substantial enough for you.

I need you, you need me too.

It wasn’t all rainbows and lollypops.

Hopping & bopping at the high school hops.

Real life with one another wasn’t easy.

Our ups and downs were never sleazy.

They, none the less, were .bumps in the road.

On our walk to winter with each other to hold.

We are strong when we have each other.

We have been a wife a husband a father & a mother.

Yet, we overcame. We are unstoppable together.

We made it through, despite the weather.

Our love has grown during this trying time.

It is stronger now that you are still mine.

As we face a future beyond the winter of our lives.

We will overcome, because, together we are wise.

Together we will see it through.

This is my promise to you.———————-R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

Going Through The Motions

Going Through The Motions

Another day passes.

Another night without sleep.

You are slow as molasses.

Are you sure you’re on your feet?

You said you’d call tomorrow.

That was two days ago now.

If you only knew my sorrow.

Then maybe you would call me now.

I’m going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But, I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I doing?

I say that I am doing fine.

I wonder who I’m really fooling?

Alone, I’m crying all the time.

You spend an evening with me.

I wish that it would never end.

Then you say you must be free.

I wonder if I’ll see you again.

Eventually you will call once more.

My heart soars like an eagle.

As I wait for your knock on the door

I wish that you would make it legal.

Going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But, I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I doing?

I say that I am doing fine.

I wonder who I’m really fooling?

Alone, I’m crying all the time.

Close friends say to cut you loose.

Your playing me for a fool.

I should put an end to this ruse.

Make you look like you’re the fool,

gaining back my respect once more.

But, this I cannot do.

I fear you walking out the door.

I will always wait for you.

Going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I doing?

I say that I am doing fine.

I wonder who I am really fooling.

Alone, I’m crying all the time.——————R. W. Johnson—-(2011)

I Became An Angel

I became An Angel

I was driving home late at night.

It was dark. The road was wet & slick.

At an intersection, bright lights to my right.

Coming fast. They hit me like a brick.

The next thing I remember clearly.

I am in heaven and God is nearby.

There is also several angels near me.

God is saying. Now he can really fly.

I said “ what is happening to me?”

God said “You have become an angel.”

“I have a special job for you, you see.”

“You will become a guardian angel “

“You will guard your girlfriend”

“I have another job for her angel.”

I said “How could I guard my girlfriend?”

“You love her” God said. “That’s my angle.”

“Since you love her you will protect her”

“Do not fear for God is always near.”

“All knowledge needed, I will confer

to you . There is no need to fear.”

At lightning speed I flew to you.

You could not see me by your side.

You were mourning. Your love was true.

It was so sad I almost cried.

As time passed, you became different.

You started using drugs & drinking.

Friends noticed the difference.

What was it you were thinking.?

Then, you said you missed me so.

It hurt you to your very core.

You just couldn’t let me go.

You couldn’t take it anymore.

Later, I stopped an O.D. attempt.

I had a friend come over in time.

You tried not to show contempt.

He said he knew that you were mine.

But, He didn’t want you to hurt yourself.

So he came over just to check on you.

You were so ashamed. He helped

you to start feeling more like you.

He doesn’t know why he came .

He just had an urgency to come.

You told him not to feel blame.

“My guardian angel was the one.”

“It had to be him that brought you here.”

“Just in time to save my life.”

All he could say was he felt someone near.

He is glad to see you were alright.

After that, he would drop in often.

A friendship grew to become love.

Later, he said he was moving to Boston.

Would you come to & be his love?

He asked you to marry him & you said yes.

You started making plans.

I said “Well, this is some mess.”

But, I went along. I was an angel, not a man.

Then, all of a sudden, I awoke.

I was in my bed, the sheets a mess.

I got up and grabbed my coat.

I rushed to your house in a minute , or less.

I told you I had had a dream.

I told you all that had happened.

I said it was a sign.—- I mean,

it is not something that will happen.

I meant I wanted to marry you.

I knew for sure you were the one.

I was glad the dream did ensue.

God wants us to have a son.

You agreed to marry me.

To be my bride. No questions why..

You wanted people just to see

It’s really true..God doesn’t lie.—————R. W. Johnson—–(2012)