Category: Songs

               Reflexions

I am feeling pretty lousy still.

I am thinking that I always will.

You were the greatest love I’ve ever had.

Now you’re gone & I am more than sad.

I had it made but, I let it slip away.

I was only thinking of the next day.

Thinking of myself & not of you.

I should have known you have feelings too.

 

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead now. There is no fun.

Everything that should cheer me

makes me want to die.

 

I should have spent more time with you.

Now,  it’s so obvious what I didn’t do.

I put my needs way ahead of yours.

My life should have taken a different course.

What you want is important too.

I would have done the same if I were you.

Hind sight is always better than fore sight they say.

I was too blind to see it any other way.

 

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead. There is no fun.

Everything that downs me

makes me want to cry.

 

I have pleaded my case to everyone.

You & your friends think I’ll overcome.

I know I won’t. I’m in misery.

There is no end that I can see.

Has there ever been a man who suffered like this?

Or, am I the first that still exists?

I only wish you could read my repentant heart.

Then you would know trying again is worth a start.

 

Crawling on my belly like a worm.

Though I hurt, it’s not your concern.

Can’t make up for what’s already done.

I am dead. There is no fun.

Everything that should cheer me—–

makes me want to die.————————–R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

 

 

 

 

Going Through The Motions

Another day passes.

Another night without sleep.

You are slow as molasses.

Are you sure you’re on your feet?

You said you’d call tomorrow.

That was two days ago now.

If you only knew my sorrow.

Then maybe you would call me now.

 

I’m going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But, I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I doing?

I say that I am  doing fine.

I wonder who I’m really fooling?

Alone,  I’m crying all the time.

 

You spend an evening with me.

I wish that it would never end.

Then you say you must be free.

I wonder if I’ll see you again.

Eventually you will call once more.

My heart soars like an eagle.

As I wait for your knock on the door

I wish that you would make it legal.

 

Going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But, I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I  doing?

I say that I am  doing fine.

I wonder who I’m really fooling?

Alone, I’m crying all the time.

 

Close friends say to cut you loose.

Your playing me for a fool.

I should put an end to this ruse.

Make you look like you’re the fool,

gaining back my respect once more.

But, this I cannot do.

I fear you walking out the door.

I will always wait for you.

 

Going through the motions.

Each day I say I’m fine.

I often have different notions.

But I deny them all the time.

Others ask how am I  doing?

I say that I am  doing fine.

I wonder who I am really fooling.

Alone,  I’m crying all the time.——————R. W. Johnson—-(2011)