Self Meditation

 

      Self Meditation

I had a little quiet time to myself.

I began thinking I need some help.

I am nearing the winter of my life.

I’ve seen the danger and the strife.

Life was always better in ‘the old days.’

It’s impossible to keep up with “the new ways.’

The important things now are family & friends.

I hope this list gets longer & never ends.

Everyone needs something to give their life meaning.

Be it religion, a job, a hobby , or just a feeling.

By feeling, I mean a strong desire to love others.

Not in a physical way. More like an agape mother.

Love thy neighbor as thy self type of love.

This desire must come from God above.

People need people. They need God too.

All are brothers and sisters  under God’s rule.

I am but a sinner. I feel like chief of them all.

I don’t think I’m one to spread the beckoned call.

But, I can’t keep quiet about changes going on in me.

It’s a strange feeling to have but, it can set you free.

So, as I sit here , deep in meditation.

Some people may say I need some medication.

But, whatever the case may be.

There are changes going on in me.

I haven’t reached my final destination yet.

I have a long way to go. On this you can bet.

But, I prefer a more sure thing.

In the Bible, I can hear the truth ring.

It is calling me loud and clear.

So, I guess I will proceed without any fear.

——————————————————R. W. Johnson—–(2013)

 

The Path To Respect

      The Path To Respect

I rolled into town late at night

after hitching a ride with a trucker.

I said thanks as he pulled out of site.

The diner was open. I’m in luck here.

 

I stuck my pack under the table.

I ordered coffee, strong, & a steak.

The waitress turned the TV on to cable.

She said ” I need it on to stay awake.”

 

“Not much business that I can see.”

She said ” It’s slow this late at night.”

I got up and went to pee.

I returned and tried my first bite.

 

“How is the steak?” she asked so sweet.

“Just like my mother used to make.”

She laughed & slid into the seat.

“What brings you here this late?”

 

“I hitched a ride with an 18 wheeler.

Back to my old stomping ground.”

“Are saying you’re from here in Cleaver?”

“It’s long ago since I was around.”

 

“Split in my teens in the dead of night.

Back then the world owed me a living.

I headed for those big city lights.

I starved. The world is unforgiving.”

 

“I finally landed a job as a busboy.

Minimum wage and a share of tips.

In time I moved up to waiter/busboy.

Then, my break came. I was up for it.”

 

“The fry cook died. I took his job.

More pay and better hours.

A place to live. That felt odd.

I had access to regular showers.”

 

“After a couple years, I moved on.

Picked up odd jobs here and there.

A few months & I would be gone.

I never stayed long anywhere.”

 

“I had my share of small town glories

Life was just a crazy carousel.

Sometimes  I suffered more fleas

than I would really care to tell.”

 

“Lately,  I been feeling sorry for myself.

I needed something to turn my life around.

Then, one day, It came to me and I felt

I had to come back to this town.”

 

“Back to where the whole thing started.

I needed a second start to do it right.

I have  felt this is where my heart is.

To do it right,  I’ll have to fight.”

 

“Fight for a respectable name in this town.

Fight to be a man people will respect.

I don’t want you to think I’m a clown.

But, I have a plan that I don’t regret.”

 

“What kind of a plan do you have in mind?”

“I met a rich friend in my travels.

I saved his life. But, that’s another time.

He had plans he started to unravel.”

 

“He wanted vineyards and a winery.

There  is big money to be had in that.

But, he needed land, you see.

I inherited 100 acres.  Right here, in fact.”

 

“He said this was ideal to grow grapes.

He would put up the money to plant.

I would share 50-50. Nothing to waste.

I owned the land on which he’d plant.”

 

The waitress said “Sounds super to me.

I own this diner & business has been slow.

I could use the extra business you see.

There’s a motel 2 blocks down for you to go.”

 

—– 0 —–

 

10 years later the wine business was booming.

They had acquired more land & planted.

Tourists came to buy & taste the wine for consuming.

“I married the waitress” he said, quite candid.

 

He was elected mayor in the local election.

He had respect & the family he wanted.

But, the greatest thing he confessed then.

He had found God & the peace he wanted.

————————————————-R. W. Johnson —–(2012)

 

 

 

Nature’s Beauty

      Nature’s Beauty

I long to hit the blacktop roads.

Where I’ll go nobody knows.

I’ll go where there are pine trees.

Smell their scent & rustling leaves.

Hike around & enjoy the view.

Enjoy nature & the sun made new

each morning as it raises high.

Bringing blue color to the sky.

Enjoy the splendor of a clear blue lake.

Watch an eagle as it catches a snake.

Listen to the birds chirping loud.

Watch the sky & all the clouds.

Lay down by a rippling brook.

Watch the fish avoid the hook.

See a bear try to catch a fish

Adorn a butterfly with a kiss..

I kneel to worship at Jesus feet.

I thank Him for a world so neat.

I see God in nature everywhere.

It’s almost more than I can bare.

How are we worthy of such beauty.

Yet, heaven is promised to me.

Along with all who profess God.

To think we’re worthy is really odd.

Yet, I long to see such things.

The beauty that God alone can bring.———R. W. Johnson—-(2012)

 

 

 

Forgetting Not To Remember

        Forgetting Not To Remember

I keep forgetting not to remember

you are someone that I used to know.

I’ve done a lot since last September.

I can’t remember everywhere I go.

I’ve traveled around everywhere.

I saw the stars down in Kokomo.

I spent some time at the World’s Fair.

I even skied the Alps, —you know.

Around the world in 80 days.

Through storms and good weather.

I could hardly see for the haze.

Then, from tall mountains, see forever.

Still, I keep forgetting not to remember

you are someone that I used to know.

I had a ball on San Francisco Bay.

the Alaskan cruise was super fun.

At times it stayed light almost all day.

It was fun  watching the whales run.

I enjoyed Paris, with its nighttime life.

The food was rich and delicious.

I saw the Eiffel Tower lit up at night.

The beauty answered all one’s wishes.

An African safari was really right.

The monkeys were funny throwing kisses.

But, I keep forgetting not to remember

you are someone that I used to know.

Though I have kept busy while gone.

I can’t put it out of my mind.

I remember just where we went wrong.

I have always thought that you were fine.

So much more were we than friends.

I can’t get you out of my mind.

I guess which is right depends.

Are you looking from your eyes or mine?

From my eyes we would never be apart.

From your eyes we were friends, —no more.

To accept that really ripped up my heart.

I can’t forget your goodbye kiss at the door.

So, I keep forgetting not to remember

you are someone that I used to know.

—————————————————R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Chance Meeting

      A Chance Meeting

It was raining the day I got to town.

Water falling from me all around.

It seemed no part of me was dry.

Water was dripping in my eyes.

I stepped into a mall to get dry.

I wiped the water from my eyes.

Before me stood a  woman in red.

Her beauty lost inside my head.

She said I looked like a drowned rat.

I said I was sorry about that.

“I walked into town in the rain.”

“That must have been a pain.”

“It was,” I said, water dripping down.

There was silence. Not a sound.

She said “You could use a warm drink.”

“I sure could.” I said with a wink.

“Come on, I’ll buy you some coffee.”

“You bet.” I said, “Black, not frothy.”

She laughed and led the way.

As we drank she happened to say

“What brings you to this town?”

“Passing through on my way around.”

“Around to where?” she said.

“To whatever comes into my head.”

“You’re a drifter then?”

“It depends on where I’ve been”

“What do you mean by that?”

“You’re not happy anywhere you’re at?”

“Anywhere’s a better place to be.”

“That’s a limited view, I can see.”

“Could you expand on that some more?”

She said “Have you never made a score?”

“You know.—- Someone to care for.”

“I’ve had my share of small town glories.”

“Nothing for which I would tell stories.”

“Do you think you will meet that ‘someone?’”

“Possibly, I won’t know till that day comes.”

We talked on one thing, then another.

Soon, we were happy we found each other.

It’s been years now since that day.

That ‘special’ someone came my way.

This town is now my home.

That lady in red is now known

as my one and only love.

That ‘special’ lady, from God above,

is the spice of my life, my loving wife.

Funny how things happen in life.————–R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

The Beginning

      The Beginning

We went for a drink at the local watering hole.

My thirst was burning a hole down to my sole.

My buddies and I were having a real good time.

Then she walked in & I went out of my mind.

I couldn’t walk.

I couldn’t talk.

All I could do is gawk.

A fire started burning deep inside.

It was from the drink, —–I lied.

I knew it was from the looks of her.

A living, walking dream for sure.

No one else paid her any mind.

To me she was the greatest find.

Pull it together boy.

Stop gawking with joy.

Get over there and do your thing.

Before some other guy takes a fling.

I walked up and started jabbering away.

She said “Come again, what did you say?”

My face turned real red.

“Sorry, I must be out of my head.”

“What seems to be the problem?”, she said.

“Well, it’s just that you’re so dog gone pretty.”

“You’re  like a beautiful, long haired, kitty.”

“Why, no one has ever said that to me before.”

“I can’t see why? You, I could always adore.”

“You’re a regular Romeo aren’t you.”

“What’s your name? Don’t say Don Juan will do.”

I told her my name & she told me hers.

I felt like she deserved diamonds and furs.

We continued to talk for some time.

Before we knew it, it was closing time.

I told her I had come in with friends.

“How I’ll get home now just depends.”

“Seems they have left some time ago.”

“I’ll take you wherever you need to go.”

I said “I’d like to see you again, if I could.”

Looks like I’m into something good.

Because she said she would like that.

So that is where it is all at.

But, I’m playing my cards with extra care.

Cause I think this is going somewhere.——R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

A Traveling Man

      A Traveling Man

Well, I’m a traveling man.

I have been to many lands.

I travel like the common man.

On back roads wherever I can.

Mexico is a beautiful place.

Common folk have what it takes.

Life there can be rough.

The people don’t have much stuff.

They earn their living with their hands.

Putting in a hard days work is their plan.

In Finland it is often cold.

The people there live to be old.

They like saunas & healthful living.

Their heart is right & very giving.

Life is tough there in the winters.

Reindeer herds to tend hinders

time to play much winter sports.

They keep busy even so, of course.

Spain is a beautiful country.

People are happy. There are plenty.

They raise grapes and other produce.

They even have chickens and a goose.

They are a lot like Mexico.

Yet, more aristocratic, you know.

Italy is a country that loves food.

Their heritage puts you in the mood.

Every wife can cook like a chef.

The kids can cook while still home yet.

They also like their wines.

They have some around all the time.

France is the place with wines to show.

They claim the best wines, you know.

Cooking is a big number there too.

French food is so rich it’s sure to fill you.

England swings like a pendulum do.

Children on bicycles two by two.

Their cooking is not their fame.

Many claim royalty with their name.

Yet the common folk are like anywhere.

No matter what, they really care.

They like their tea and crumpets.

When royalty comes they blow trumpets.

Through my travels I’ve found one thing.

Aside from culture, one thing does ring.

Common folk everywhere

are human and they care.

I guess God made us that way.

Looks like man is here to stay.—————–R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

 

 

More Than It Seemed

      More Than It Seemed

My life was making the rounds

of the honky tonks And bars.

There was no where I was bound.

Each place left many scars.

Some for all to see.

Others on the heart.

There was nothing there for me.

My life was literally falling apart.

Then I met a living walking dream.

My life took a different turn.

Not in the honky tonks, it seems.

But, in a in a library with book worms.

We whispered back & forth.

Then, I asked her out for coffee.

She said yes, was her retort.

It was odd. I felt so sloppy.

We had coffee & talked.

Her life was as lonely as mine.

I was so glad she hadn’t balked.

When I told her I had a good time.

I asked to see her again.

To my surprise she agreed.

Something good was about to begin.

Was I ever lucky to plant this seed.

With her looks, I didn’t see

how she could ever be lonely.

But, it seems she was just like me.

Except that she wasn’t homely.

Time passes like it always does.

We kept dating once a week or more.

No honky tonks or bars because

I wanted her to see so much more.

She was a teacher in grade school.

I was a carpenter full time.

She was interested in what I do.

I was only thinking I wish she was mine.

We had many interests in common.

There was so much to share with her.

she introduced me to her mama & kin.

Where my family was, I wasn’t sure.

One day, listening to the radio.

We heard a religious show.

We both said maybe we should go.

There was so much we didn’t know.

To make a long story shorter now.

We ended up being baptized there.

Then we exchanged wedding vows.

We became members. Now God we share.

Our life has become a threesome.

We may become four before too long.

For now it’s her & I & God is the third one.

Life has become a happy song.

Funny how life changed from honky tonks & bars.

To paradise every day of my life.

No longer does loneliness scar.

Because I have God and my wife.————-R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Bird’s Life

A Bird’s Life

Where do you go little bird?

When it snows.—–When it snows.

When this world turns to sleep.

Do you know?—–Do you know?

 

Is there something in the wind

that breathes a chill in your heart

that says it’s autumn’s end?

Does this bring life to your wings?

 

Where is the sun in the night?

Is it cold?—–Is it cold?

Do you feel left behind?

Alone and old?—–And old?

 

Do you fly on through the dark?

Waiting for dawn to light the sky.

Do you follow the sun’s arc?

As you fly far—–So very far.

 

Is your home in the restless wind?

Is it there?—–Is it here?

Do you search for a place to belong?

Search in vain?—–Search in fear?

 

I hear your voice in every tree.

Come the spring—–Come the spring.

This means you are now near me.

Come to me.—–Come to me.

 

You have found your home .

Once again.—–Once again.

But, come the autumn, you will roam.

Once again.—–Once again.

 

Where do you go little bird?

When it snows.—–When it snows.

Where you spend your wintery nights?

No one knows.—–No one knows.————R. W. Johnson—–(2014)

 

 

 

Right Next Door

      Right Next Door

It happened today. What a big surprise.

I met the person who opened my eyes.

I must have traveled a million miles.

On Trains, planes, and cars. Even walked awhile.

I was searching. But, I didn’t know for what.

Seems I was kind of in a rut.

Just kept truckin & roaming around.

Till I finally came back to this town.

Yes, this town where I was born & raised.

I haven’t seen it in many days.

Why I came back? I haven’t a clue.

It wasn’t a girl because I didn’t know you.

It seems you were the ‘girl next door.’

Somehow, I never talked with you before.

Then I saw you out front in the street.

That is how we happened to meet.

You said” Didn’t you used to live next door?”

I said “Yes, my parents are still here, as before.”

“I have been just traveling around.”

“What I was searching for I never found.”

“What was that?” she said with a smile.

“I guess just a place to belong for awhile”

She laughed at that and we continued to talk.

She remembered me but, I was caught.

I had to admit I had forgotten how pretty she was.

She smiled bigger at this because

I was blushing very brightly now.

She smoothed it all over somehow.

After a week I found she was always on my mind.

She was charming, beautiful and very kind.

We started hanging out together.

We went places despite the weather.

As time went by I began to see.

She was the one who was meant for me.

She was what I had been searching for.

All this time she was right next door.

Let this be a lesson to all who read this.

Never let your life run amiss.

Take a good look at what is around.

You will be surprised at what is found.———-R. W. Johnson—–(2014)